Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Finding bliss amidst the pain

the last 48 hours have been marked with intermittent periods of joy and pain.
joy in the form of two things:
1. rediscovering basketball. i haven't touched a basketball in 2 years. imagine my excitement when i felt the leather in my palm and reminded my body of the poetic motion of the perfect jumpshot. when all of my problems with my operations and decision analysis cases seemed to converge on my saturated brain, i found sweet release on the court. just me, a hoop and a ball. for 20 blessed minutes basketball was mine to discover anew. aaaaaahhhhhhh.
2. the perfect ride. with 'crossvegas fast approaching, i was definitely worried about my fitness. i dug around and found a non-pro kit (for the first time in 4 years!) and dressed myself in the colors of the brazilian flag. i switched on the ipod and took my trusty old specialized road bike (a prototype, mind you...i've got the only 53 cm in existence!) out on the road for some self-inflicted flogging. despite my fears that it would be the suckiest 2 1/2 hours of the week, it ended up being incredible. i hammered the crap out of myself and returned from my ride happy. my friend william had called me earlier that day and confirmed my suspicions: virginia was enjoying a week of absolutely perfect fall weather. add that to my gorgeous ride on the best roads in the country (my tax dollars at work!), and you have happy mandy. it made getting dressed for my evening learning team meeting almost fun.
which brings me to the pain:
my decision analysis and operations classes. such agony! this mba program has been a lesson in humility...i have never been so demoralized by the frequency of which i feel stupid. i'd say for the hours in a day when i'm not deep in r.e.m. mode, i am feeling dumb about 90% of them. the 10% is saved by my insanely-awesome ability to cook anything and everything.
hey, small victories.
and speaking of small things, here i am on my patio in my non-pro brazil kit (a gift from the brazilian fernandez sisters i met at la vuelta ciclista el salvador), posing like a ballerina in front of the morning glory that creeps along my fence. i rather like morning glories, and am glad someone else took the trouble to plant them.
speaking of pain, that picture reminds me i need to do my cardboard recycling.

2 comments:

e-RICHIE said...

can you go to your left?

ROBINSON said...

sucka, you'd get dunked on